Please think of a real, actual situation you experienced. Please tell the story adding one little twist: tell what would have happened had you participated in the story 100% authentically and vulnerably with no f&*#@s left to give. What would you have done or said? What reaction or response would you have received? How would you have reacted to that response?
The story can be about your relationship with your alcoholic, but it doesn't have to be. We all have challenging relationships with family, friends, neighbors and coworkers to draw from as well.
For some of us, this might be a totally nonfiction story. For many others, you will have to imagine the scenario had you approached a real life situations with no f&%@!s left to give.
I really do have no more fucks to give.
I like to say that out loud, but I don’t live by the motto.
Usually by the time it comes down to brass tacks I think better and do give a fuck and actually do what I’m supposed to do and am resentful about it.
To think of an actual situation is going to take time though.
I could say every day lately when I come home from work or from where ever I’ve been and C shuts me out and ignores me and doesn’t even say “hi” or “how was your day?” I could say no, I have no more fucks to give about that. But I’d be lying. I could say I have no more fucks to give about the state of his recovery, because I know I can’t control it.
And I know I have no right to have fucks to give about his behavior around the house but I do because it affects me.
I have no more fucks to give because I literally cannot give any fucks anymore. If I did have fucks to give I would confront him and say
FUck it I have no more fucks to give about this prompt right now and just want to watch mindless YouTube vids and color! I’ll be back later in the week to write something more substantial.
