Sunday, April 21, 2013
Amen to that!
Too many people (myself included) can identify with this post on postsecret this morning:
Thursday, April 11, 2013
It's been a while since I've written anything of substance
And today isn't the day for it. It feels like I should do a fresh start post for the beginning of spring. But the pollen and my job are just making it too difficult to focus on anything right now. I am in a wonderful relationship for the first time in a while and am really just working hard and having fun. It's hard to settle into anything knowing I'm leaving for OK in the fall but it will also be good practice with living life in the moment and just enjoying each day as it comes. I'm so glad I'm going somewhere in the fall; this CNA home healthcare bullshit is getting old and quite frankly wearing on my very last nerve.
It's not like I don't enjoy my clients; I'm just very resentful of a system that doesn't work and a society that doesn't value what I value. I tried to explain this to my father today and got very emotional. Why should money be the marker of success? Why should we place a dollar value on care that doesn't work? Why should the higher ups who quite frankly don't give a shit about anything except taking care of themselves be the ones who make the decisions for others? And why do these jobs pay so little and expect so much? It's not like I can change any of this, and if I could I would but it seems like we have a systemic bigger picture problem at hand here.
I don't like the fact that I am judged by what my parents do, or what I do for that matter. I don't like the fact that to a lot of these people (clients included) I am no more than a blip in their day filled with ingratitude and thanklessness. And why should I be judged for what I care to do because I don't make above the poverty line. Why is money the measure of success and why do people become more racist and classist as they age? And why was I told I'd be able to work in a hospital with a CNA certificate when that is clearly a LIE.
Maybe I had a hard day and maybe I'm a bit bitter. My time is limited here, and for that I am thankful. Thankful for the fact that I am out of here in three months, max. I don't think I'm quite a socialist, but I do think that certain things should be universal. Like healthcare for example. I do think that we should start treating our employees the way they treat us, and place more value on human resources than dollar value resources. Money isn't everything and we are not incomplete people without it. My brother pisses me off sometimes because he takes for granted how good he has it being at the premiere research grad school in the southeast and earns a salary similar to my first year teaching salary doing research and going to class. Why aren't there more universities out there that place a value on people that want to make a difference in other's lives and not just their own. Maybe I sound judgmental tonight, but that's only because I myself am sick of being judged.
It's not like I don't enjoy my clients; I'm just very resentful of a system that doesn't work and a society that doesn't value what I value. I tried to explain this to my father today and got very emotional. Why should money be the marker of success? Why should we place a dollar value on care that doesn't work? Why should the higher ups who quite frankly don't give a shit about anything except taking care of themselves be the ones who make the decisions for others? And why do these jobs pay so little and expect so much? It's not like I can change any of this, and if I could I would but it seems like we have a systemic bigger picture problem at hand here.
I don't like the fact that I am judged by what my parents do, or what I do for that matter. I don't like the fact that to a lot of these people (clients included) I am no more than a blip in their day filled with ingratitude and thanklessness. And why should I be judged for what I care to do because I don't make above the poverty line. Why is money the measure of success and why do people become more racist and classist as they age? And why was I told I'd be able to work in a hospital with a CNA certificate when that is clearly a LIE.
Maybe I had a hard day and maybe I'm a bit bitter. My time is limited here, and for that I am thankful. Thankful for the fact that I am out of here in three months, max. I don't think I'm quite a socialist, but I do think that certain things should be universal. Like healthcare for example. I do think that we should start treating our employees the way they treat us, and place more value on human resources than dollar value resources. Money isn't everything and we are not incomplete people without it. My brother pisses me off sometimes because he takes for granted how good he has it being at the premiere research grad school in the southeast and earns a salary similar to my first year teaching salary doing research and going to class. Why aren't there more universities out there that place a value on people that want to make a difference in other's lives and not just their own. Maybe I sound judgmental tonight, but that's only because I myself am sick of being judged.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
I'm feeling a little stuck lately....
...can you tell?
I want to be here today instead of at GSU.
What about you?
Where would you like to go?
I want to be here today instead of at GSU.
What about you?
Where would you like to go?
Monday, March 11, 2013
I want to get away...
...to somewhere like this, maybe?
Doesn't that just look delightful?
Where would you go today, if money and time weren't a factor?
Doesn't that just look delightful?
Where would you go today, if money and time weren't a factor?
Friday, March 1, 2013
Acceptance!
This is what accomplishment feels like.
So yeah, it was a pretty exciting week in Rambling Rose land. Ramling Rose will be Rambling once again to Tulsa, Oklahoma because Oklahoma State has offered me acceptance in their Communication Sciences and Disorders Master's Program with an teaching assistantship (stipend), health insurance, and tuition assistance. (They waive out of state tuition and pay for three credits of instate tuition.) It's the best offer I've gotten so far. I'm still waiting to hear from two more schools, but I don't mind moving to OK if I have to. :) So excited!
So yeah, it was a pretty exciting week in Rambling Rose land. Ramling Rose will be Rambling once again to Tulsa, Oklahoma because Oklahoma State has offered me acceptance in their Communication Sciences and Disorders Master's Program with an teaching assistantship (stipend), health insurance, and tuition assistance. (They waive out of state tuition and pay for three credits of instate tuition.) It's the best offer I've gotten so far. I'm still waiting to hear from two more schools, but I don't mind moving to OK if I have to. :) So excited!
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